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Recovery Ruined My Drinking

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The last 2 months have been shit.

I’ve been in full blown relapse and riding the roller coaster of bad decisions. Drinking – harmful actions – hurt relationships – new regrets every morning. Each time I think it’s done, I start the nasty cycle all over again.

No surprise – it’s not been any fun.

Drinking is boring.

Addiction sucks.

I can see the gains from my recovery still exist. I can’t unlearn the truth about my addiction. I can’t forget that life was much better sober. I can’t believe that I am trapped without the choice to stop.

Deep down inside, I know that I’m better than this. Recovery taught me that I am more than the drunk ass idiot I’ve become this month.

Sober Tony still exists and he still wants to fight back.

Maybe today will be day #1 again.

 

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About Sober Tony

Tony is the founder and editor of Daily Recovery Club. He is a widely respected authority (in his own mind). He's just trying to live a little longer and a lot stronger.

This blog is not professional or medical advice, rather a support community for others suffering from alcoholism. We are all experts on failure, starting over, and trying to laugh at the absurdity of it all. Find him on Twitter @soberTony

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  2. bgddyjim says

    Sober up Tony. And put “maybe” in the garbage. You are proof positive that we are a selfish, self-centered lot. You reminded me about my true nature today, and for that I am grateful.

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