Alcohol blew up my life, now I’m fighting back.
This blog is my recovery story. Sometimes it’s ugly, but I try to keep it honest. I’m putting myself out there for one simple reason – I want to help you fight back against your addiction.
My rock bottom was living in a ghetto in Haiti. That’s where I finally admitted I was powerless over alcohol. Now I’m Sober Tony, working the 12 steps and doing recovery one day at a time.
The Longer Edition
I’m was a married guy with a houseful of kids. I used to be very religious and even studied theology in college. After that I earned a master’s degree in education. I ran marathons and used to take good care of my health. For 10 years I worked as an assistant pastor and have done volunteer work overseas.
From the outside my life looked great. I was the last person you’d expect to have a drinking problem. In my mind I had it all by the time I was 35 years old. There was only one problem, I was losing control of myself.
I’ve been a secret alcoholic since I was a teenager. Then it got a lot worse.
Because of some early business success, I could afford to work from home. That extra freedom was my downfall. In 2016 (pre-sobriety) I enjoyed a morning binge while working in my home office, afternoon nap, dinner with the family and then a second binge while wrapping up some work in the evening. I thought it was fun, once I found the right drinks to avoid hangovers and vomiting. Things kept getting worse, every area of my life was suffering and I’d have several blackouts a week.
I was drunk driving almost every day, putting the kids I loved in serious danger.
While looking for answers online, I discovered other people blogging about their recovery. It was inspiring and fit my interests (I’ve been a web developer / online content editor). That’s how this blog started in June 2016.
I made it to 17 days sober. It was amazing, but then I relapsed.
The addiction came back full force and things progressed fast. Nothing seemed to matter anymore. My health spiraled downward and my marriage fell apart. I detached from anything that kept me away from drinking. That’s how I found rock bottom and ended up living in a Caribbean ghetto (map).
Fast forward 6 months and I’m sober again. This time is different.
This blog started as my long-shot because I was short on hope. Each day I’m gaining a little courage and discovering what it means to get sober. You can read my Sobriety Journal posts starting at Day #1
We are stronger together
You don’t have to do this thing alone. I’m in the fight of my life here. Addiction wants me to die, but I’m not going to lose this time.
I’m dreaming that this blog could become a safe place for others too. It’s where we can talk about addiction, sobriety, recovery, and fight this demon of alcohol. I’m hopeful my stories will help someone else out there too.
It all starts when you leave a comment on any post.
I’ve been featured on several other websites.
- In Recovery Magazine published my story The Journey From Fun to Abuse
- For STIGMA FIGHTERS, I wrote how shame over my mental illness was part of my downward spiral.
- Christian Recovery Community posted my article From Pastor to Spiritual Roadkill.
Email me anytime – Hello@dailyRecovery.club
You can see the map of where I’m getting sober in Haiti.