Sober Tony

It's been a full year since my rock bottom. And only a week since my last "drunk." Damn it's a pain to admit, but I'm still an alcoholic. Sobriety has been great, but I always find a way to get that first drink. Sometimes it's … [Read more...] about I’m getting real good at “quitting” but not so good at staying sober

I'm not sure I want to post this, so when I take it down tomorrow you'll know why. It's a new song by Derek Webb, an artist I've enjoyed for many years. Speaking from his own personal struggles, he pens a beautiful hymn to … [Read more...] about The Alcoholic Hymn (The Spirit Bears the Curse) by Derek Webb

I sat nervously on the exam table and fumbled for the right words. The young nurse had asked a simple question and I was nearly in tears. Do you have any other questions? It was only a routine checkup for my blood pressure medicine, but I … [Read more...] about Can Wellbutrin Help Me Quit Drinking?

I never sobbed so hard in my life. It felt like I was choking. It was middle of August and my divorce had just gone final. Despite the 9-month process, the official “decree of dissolution” was the lowest point of my life. It had been my … [Read more...] about Relapse was like attempting suicide

I never imagined this is how I'd get sober again. But it was exactly what I needed. I’ve spent the last week in the mountains of Southern Haiti observing a small Vodou dance festival. At its most basic level, it was a reunion for my … [Read more...] about My 7 Day Alcohol Detox at a Vodou Dance Festival

The last 2 months have been shit. I've been in full blown relapse and riding the roller coaster of bad decisions. Drinking - harmful actions - hurt relationships - new regrets every morning. Each time I think it's done, I start the nasty … [Read more...] about Recovery Ruined My Drinking