Sober Tony

I'm getting sick of writing bullshit "I'm starting over" kind of blog posts. Addiction gets old .... It's no wonder family and friends lose all faith in our recovery. We admit we're powerless then get some time sober we … [Read more...] about I need help and can’t manage my own recovery

It's been a full year since my rock bottom. And only a week since my last "drunk." Damn it's a pain to admit, but I'm still an alcoholic. Sobriety has been great, but I always find a way to get that first drink. Sometimes it's … [Read more...] about I’m getting real good at “quitting” but not so good at staying sober

I'm not sure I want to post this, so when I take it down tomorrow you'll know why. It's a new song by Derek Webb, an artist I've enjoyed for many years. Speaking from his own personal struggles, he pens a beautiful hymn to … [Read more...] about The Alcoholic Hymn (The Spirit Bears the Curse) by Derek Webb

I sat nervously on the exam table and fumbled for the right words. The young nurse had asked a simple question and I was nearly in tears. Do you have any other questions? It was only a routine checkup for my blood pressure medicine, but I … [Read more...] about Can Wellbutrin Help Me Quit Drinking?

I never sobbed so hard in my life. It felt like I was choking. It was middle of August and my divorce had just gone final. Despite the 9-month process, the official “decree of dissolution” was the lowest point of my life. It had been my … [Read more...] about Relapse was like attempting suicide

I never imagined this is how I'd get sober again. But it was exactly what I needed. I’ve spent the last week in the mountains of Southern Haiti observing a small Vodou dance festival. At its most basic level, it was a reunion for my … [Read more...] about My 7 Day Alcohol Detox at a Vodou Dance Festival