Alcoholics are famous for drinking excuses. That was my pattern too, maybe you were the same way. Often I'd muse over my breakfast beer: There is no good reason to be sober at 9 AM - that's just laziness or lack of imagination. That was the … [Read more...] about 113 Days Sober: Another Close Call and Finding Excuses Not To Drink
Do you want to know a secret? This blog didn't work the first time. I made it through day 18 sober (June 2016), then my relapse day became a spiral down to rock bottom. That was a long way down... Nine Months … [Read more...] about 16 Weeks Sober (112 days) Learning to Share My Story
The self-pity week continues. Today's edition was fueled by some bad financial news. With two emails, I lost half my income for this month - that's a big downside to the self-employment dream. It shouldn't be a crisis because I've … [Read more...] about 108 Days Sober: What if things get worse?
Even after the big 100 days sober milestone, I've had a week of low motivation. It's no crisis, but I keep letting those old addiction whispers hang around too long. It's the kind of drinking fantasies that will lead me back to the alcohol … [Read more...] about 107 Days Sober: Finding Motivation by Helping Another Alcoholic
Make your hula hoop smaller. Everything and everything outside can f*ck off. Who are you kidding? You can't take care of all that shit because you're not that f*cking smart. That's another quote from my AA experience, I love those retired … [Read more...] about 106 Days Sober: Being Selfish about My Sobriety
It's been creeping up on me for a few weeks. I have a steady feeling that nothing is worth doing. Behind that, the sinking suspicion that maybe my whole sobriety project was just another manic-obsessive … [Read more...] about 15 Weeks Sober (105 Days): Is my bipolar medicine making me depressed?