I never sobbed so hard in my life. It felt like I was choking. It was middle of August and my divorce had just gone final. Despite the 9-month process, the official “decree of dissolution” was the lowest point of my life. It had been my … [Read more...] about Relapse was like attempting suicide
My 7 Day Alcohol Detox at a Vodou Dance Festival
I never imagined this is how I'd get sober again. But it was exactly what I needed. I’ve spent the last week in the mountains of Southern Haiti observing a small Vodou dance festival. At its most basic level, it was a reunion for my … [Read more...] about My 7 Day Alcohol Detox at a Vodou Dance Festival
Recovery Ruined My Drinking
The last 2 months have been shit. I've been in full blown relapse and riding the roller coaster of bad decisions. Drinking - harmful actions - hurt relationships - new regrets every morning. Each time I think it's done, I start the nasty … [Read more...] about Recovery Ruined My Drinking
Addiction Kicked My Ass this Month
I've been really quiet on the blog and on Twitter. Too quiet. For the last 2 weeks I've been drinking again and was quickly sliding back into the hell of addiction. I don't blame circumstances, it was my choice to go back to drinking. … [Read more...] about Addiction Kicked My Ass this Month
118 Days Sober: Medicine can’t fix a broken lifestyle
Doing yard work is something I missed living in my Haitian ghetto. I'm back in the USA -- again. Mowing the lawn is part of my life. Since I was 12 years old, it's been a weekly summertime ritual. This is my meditation, exercise, and … [Read more...] about 118 Days Sober: Medicine can’t fix a broken lifestyle
115 Days Sober: Energy Drinks and Recovering Addicts
First it was Coca-Cola, now it's energy drinks. I'm always looking for a fix. Things could be worse, it's fairly moderate. I've been holding it to 8 oz per day, which isn't much more caffeine than coffee. I think it's the sugar that makes … [Read more...] about 115 Days Sober: Energy Drinks and Recovering Addicts