The self-pity week continues. Today's edition was fueled by some bad financial news. With two emails, I lost half my income for this month - that's a big downside to the self-employment dream. It shouldn't be a crisis because I've … [Read more...] about 108 Days Sober: What if things get worse?
Even after the big 100 days sober milestone, I've had a week of low motivation. It's no crisis, but I keep letting those old addiction whispers hang around too long. It's the kind of drinking fantasies that will lead me back to the alcohol … [Read more...] about 107 Days Sober: Finding Motivation by Helping Another Alcoholic
Make your hula hoop smaller. Everything and everything outside can f*ck off. Who are you kidding? You can't take care of all that shit because you're not that f*cking smart. That's another quote from my AA experience, I love those retired … [Read more...] about 106 Days Sober: Being Selfish about My Sobriety
It's been creeping up on me for a few weeks. I have a steady feeling that nothing is worth doing. Behind that, the sinking suspicion that maybe my whole sobriety project was just another manic-obsessive … [Read more...] about 15 Weeks Sober (105 Days): Is my bipolar medicine making me depressed?
I love the recovery community I've found on the internet. Here are some blogs and tweets that helped me this week. I think you'll like them too. Happy Birthday HD - I loved your perspective on turning 55. I'm a few years behind you but … [Read more...] about 104 Days Sober – Birthdays, Cravings, and Broken People
Lots of things about my drinking were head smacking stupid, I'm expanding my stupid file Many of my actions belong under that label -- before, during, and after drinking. Sick not weak is true, but I had some bone-headed choices that made … [Read more...] about 103 Days Sober: Expanding my “stupid” file