I saw the same pain on their faces that I was feeling inside. This morning I returned to my home church. This was where I served as a pastor for the past 11 years, until December when addiction finally blew up my life. I walked into a … [Read more...] about 61 Days Sober: I’m the ghost who walked into church on Easter morning
60 Days Sober (2 months) The Roller Coaster Continues
Life has me by the balls this week. I'm back in the USA to visit my kids, handle some personal business, and get some help with my recovery. This means lots of stress and standing up to fear, regret, and all my old drinking … [Read more...] about 60 Days Sober (2 months) The Roller Coaster Continues
59 Days Sober – Coming out about my alcoholism
If you've been following the blog, you know that I've been struggling in secret with my addiction. Not anymore. On December 6th everything broke wide open - the shit hit the fan - all hell broke loose. In the process I'm officially … [Read more...] about 59 Days Sober – Coming out about my alcoholism
58 Days Sober – Self Pity is a Drinking trigger
It's three days into my latest dry spell and I'm just feeling down. More exactly, I'm feeling sorry for myself. Some new health concerns showed up yesterday. It's nothing terrible, just the normal progression of bad habits and getting … [Read more...] about 58 Days Sober – Self Pity is a Drinking trigger
57 Days Sober – Is the Bible wrong about alcohol?
Warning: This post is about my personal religious opinions - which change frequently. I'd love to hear your feedback in the comments below. I was a very religious person before addiction hijacked my life. It wasn't foreplay, I went … [Read more...] about 57 Days Sober – Is the Bible wrong about alcohol?
56 Days Sober (8 Weeks) So why did I want to get drunk tonight?
8 weeks of sobriety, but today I was ripe for a relapse. It started with not shaving, since I've been sober the simple act of shaving has been the cornerstone of my morning routine. It was my first intentional daily habit when I quit … [Read more...] about 56 Days Sober (8 Weeks) So why did I want to get drunk tonight?