Sober Tony

I'm learning to be spiritual again, mostly through the serenity prayer and trying to live out Jesus' golden rule. I believe in a higher power, but that hasn't made me forget the lower power of addiction that I used to … [Read more...] about 78 Days Sober: The Addict’s Anti-Prayer (How to Trash Talk Addiction)

I'm a slow learner. With my recovery, I sometimes think "abstaining from alcohol" is all the strategy I need. I'm learning that's not enough. Most days I'm rock solid. Only 3 times in 77 days has desire for alcohol felt strong enough … [Read more...] about Day 77 (11 Weeks Sober) My New Alcohol Craving Contract

They are big and nasty ????. I don't believe in magic pills, but I'm hoping this might do something. Even if it's only a minor help to get my emotions under control. It's been 18 days since the diagnosis - rapid cycling mood disorder. … [Read more...] about 76 Days Sober: 4 reasons I finally took my bipolar meds (Depakote ER 500mg)

Yesterday I gave up. So it's a miracle that I made it to 75 days sober. This week has been tough, lots of downward feelings and negative thinking. Then some travel plans​ had me out the door with 4 hours of sleep. I was angry, … [Read more...] about 75 Days Sober: I can’t even do relapse right

The score is 74 - 0, it's an epic beat down, so why does it feel so hard? I've been smashing addiction for almost 11 weeks now. Despite my unconventional start, I'm putting in the work everyday to get this drink problem out of my … [Read more...] about 74 Days Sober: I thought it would get easier by now