Sober Tony

This blog feels a little lonely when I do all the talking. I'd love to hear about your struggles with addiction. Maybe you've never shared your story before, maybe you're still hiding the drinking problem. That's ok. Just leave a … [Read more...] about Share your recovery story. We need to do this together.

I can't stop reading her text message: "Go ahead, move down there and die in the slums with your whore's babies. My children will call someone else daddy. They deserve better." After 20 years, she may actually be finished with me. The … [Read more...] about How do I know when I’ve hit “rock bottom?”

It's been too many days to count, but I'd guess around 40 days drunk in a row. Most of these were morning binge, nap, then repeat after dinner. My head is all wrong, so I can't write much today. Suffice to say the alcoholism came back … [Read more...] about Day 1 (again) I’m back

I really hate myself lately. The last 6 weeks have been a blurry nightmare. My drinking has been worse than ever and I can't seem to find the reset button. The addiction has me in a bad spot, in a beer for breakfast kinda way. I'm … [Read more...] about Where do you find the courage to start over???

I just finished the post about my relapse. Somewhere I read that those are normal, almost expected for alcoholics who are first beginning the recovery process. The important point (so they say) is to not let things spiral out of control. … [Read more...] about 18 Days Sober: Falling forward after alcohol relapse

I'm not surprised that it happened. For the last few days I've been losing resolve and struggling with the craving to drink.  I decided to buy some rum and have a few drinks after I mowed the lawn. That was an old ritual, but usually … [Read more...] about Relapse Day: Toxic friendships