I woke up drunk this morning.
That was new for me and scary enough to get my attention, but after a few cups of coffee I was ready for rum shots. The rest of the day was something of a typical high functioning blackout.
I’m definitely an abuser and by every measure an alcoholic. The warning signs are present. The patterns are getting worse. I am not in control.
It’s time to stop.
But typing this now I’m not sure how to make that happen. I feel very alone in this struggle and too ashamed to find help.
At least I’m going to bed sober.