Simple Answer – I WAS MAD AS HELL
Addiction had gone too far, stealing everything I wanted in my life and leaving me with nothing but misery.
???? I was done. I’d had enough. It was time to fight.
It’s like the kid who’s been knocked down by a bully. He stands up, fists closed, with no thought of dignity or even survival. All that matters is smashing the face of that bastard who pushed him down. Addiction was that bully.
???? ???? I came off rock bottom with a bounce.
The spell was broken and I woke up swinging. It wasn’t noble or spiritual. There was vomit on my breath and in my snot. More importantly, there was a fire in my soul that I would rather die than be a slave again.
????????????That’s how I started my recovery journey – my secret was anger.
The 12 steps and the spiritual stuff came later. My first impulse just start fighting, that came from within.