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28 Days Sober: About my almost relapse

Posted by Sober Tony on March 14, 2017 4 Comments

My recovery is working for one simple reason – I don’t want to drink anymore.

  • It’s not willpower
  • It’s not a spiritual awakening
  • It’s not a sobriety program

This time something clicked and I finally was ready to quit drinking. In previous attempts I felt deprived, like someone was stealing my best friend. My mind was divided: On one hand, I wanted to avoid the trouble of addiction. On the other, I still loved the way alcohol made me feel.

Of course, I was wrong. Alcohol was never my friend and only brought me problems. Today, I’m overjoyed to be free of that prison – to leave behind my obsession with getting a buzz. There’s just one question. How do I know my mind won’t switch back to the old pattern of thinking? How can I be certain I won’t wake up next week with the desire to drink again?

Yesterday was the perfect storm for a relapse and my first real test.

I hadn’t been feeling well and was dealing with some bad news from home. That’s when I walked into a big mess of relationship stress. It’s a long story, but nothing unexpected. What surprised me was my intense emotional reaction. I couldn’t handle a simple argument without feeling like my life was falling apart. My brain still interprets​ every negative feeling as infallible proof that I need alcohol.

Then the opportunity appeared.

We had planned a dinner party for a friend’s birthday. It would include visiting one of my favorite nightclubs. The addiction demon had me hostage. In those moments of struggle all I could think about was erasing the flood of negative feelings. I didn’t crave the drink itself, just an escape from my emotional chaos. But this time was different, for all the temptations I didn’t really want to drink.

I’d rather die than fall back into the alcohol trap.

I am several weeks into recovery, but last night was my moment of truth. I started digging around the internet for coping strategies and any cognitive behavior hacks that could get me through the night. I refuse to become powerless again.

  • I read a chapter in my current recovery book
  • I had a snack and a cup of coffee
  • I enjoyed the music and attempted a little dancing
  • I found reasons to laugh and clown around
  • I reached out to my support networks on Twitter on Facebook

That’s me enjoying a Coca-Cola at the nightclub. My cravings disappeared the minute I ordered this non-alcoholic beverage. Once the battle was decided, I felt the weight lift. I actually had a good time.

Today is day 28 of my sobriety. Last night was the first time my recovery was in danger. When the stress came, I discovered I was able to be rational, make the smart choice, and work through the emotional cravings.

It was just one more day, but today I feel stronger than ever before.

Winning feels good.

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About Sober Tony

Tony is the founder and editor of Daily Recovery Club. He is a widely respected authority (in his own mind). He's just trying to live a little longer and a lot stronger.

This blog is not professional or medical advice, rather a support community for others suffering from alcoholism. We are all experts on failure, starting over, and trying to laugh at the absurdity of it all. Find him on Twitter @soberTony

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  1. Bryan says

    March 16, 2017 at 10:21 pm

    I’m really glad I stumbled my way to read this! I hit a lot of the same points! It’s different this time for me quitting , AND today I had my first close relapse . Today is day 14 for me . I got sick on day 8 , and I’m still not feeling well . That mixed with a few issues today just made me wonder why did I quit if I still don’t feel well. The saying ” your worst day sober is better than your best day drunk” is pretty powerful to me. I’ll definitely keep reading, and thanks for the motivation!!

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    • Sober Tony says

      March 16, 2017 at 10:25 pm

      Thanks so much for commenting. I love that quote. Those first two weeks are rough, keep working it and things will get better. Maybe not easy right away but better every day.

      Reply

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