If you've been following the blog, you know that I've been struggling in secret with my addiction. Not anymore. On December 6th everything broke wide open - the shit hit the fan - all hell broke loose. In the process I'm officially … [Read more...] about Coming out about my alcoholism
I don't like rules so much. Close friends and ex-wives have even suggested I have an oppositional defiant disorder. Which I always took as a compliment. So adjusting to limits isn't natural for me. Especially when those boundaries are … [Read more...] about The one-step program to overcome alcohol addiction
The whole project of getting sober seems straightforward. There is one key lifestyle change, right? Just stop drinking. That's it. Not exactly rocket science. Avoid putting alcohol beverages in my mouth. It's an idiot proof plan. Why … [Read more...] about Do I really need an addiction counselor?
I can't stop reading her text message: "Go ahead, move down there and die in the slums with your whore's babies. My children will call someone else daddy. They deserve better." After 20 years, she may actually be finished with me. The … [Read more...] about How do I know when I’ve hit “rock bottom?”
It's been too many days to count, but I'd guess around 40 days drunk in a row. Most of these were morning binge, nap, then repeat after dinner. My head is all wrong, so I can't write much today. Suffice to say the alcoholism came back … [Read more...] about Day 1 (again) I’m back
I'm living a lie. Actually, I've been living multiple lies for a long time. I think they'd call it compartmentalization and the definition really fits my struggles with alcoholism. I can't handle the truth about myself, so I pretend like … [Read more...] about Do I really have to be honest about my alcohol addiction?