This one was a struggle at first.
If you read my post about step 2, then it shouldn’t be a mystery. I’m not enthusiastic about trusting God or making my decisions stick. I’m not anti-religion, but it’s been a long while since I’ve felt connected with anything spiritual. It’s been a longer time since I could trust myself to follow through on any decisions.
So I put my objections on hold and read the AA literature.
In short, this step is not optional.
I’m starting to understand. Step three is focused on removing the barrier of self-will and replacing that defect with faith.
It’s obvious that own desires got me into this mess. For the whole of my drinking history, I was hellbent on finding the next drink. In the end, that’s all that I really wanted. Everyone who commits to the alcoholics anonymous program has that in common.
Step 3 is asking me to give control over to someone more qualified, namely my higher power.
I’m ready to do exactly that.
It still sounds a little corny, but I’m ready to give it a try:
Jesus take the wheel.
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