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10 Ways Having an Affair Screwed Up My Life

Posted by Sober Tony on April 26, 2017 4 Comments

I was drunk – of course I was drunk.

That’s not a good excuse because I wanted the same thing when I was sober. It took me 2 years of flirting and fantasy to get my courage up, but it was my own stupid rotten choice.

That’s something I’ve got to live with.

The last two years of my addiction led me somewhere I never expected to go. I was in a spiral of depression, blackouts, and lonely in a way I can’t describe. So I turn to another woman, while my wife was busy caring for our children at home. We’re separated, getting a divorce, and don’t talk anymore. That’s how I found rock bottom.

10 Ways the Affair Screwed Up My Life

  1. I betrayed​ a wonderful person. She didn’t deserve the heartbreak.
  2. I’ve disappointed some wonderful children. Dad was their hero, but I kinda suck.
  3. I discredited everything I used to believe, like God & family stuff.
  4. I was NOT emotionally ready for the new relationship, it’s rocky to say the least.
  5. The new woman deserved better. She caught a 1st class loser.
  6. The affair created strong feelings and new bonding. This prevented me going home to reconcile.
  7. New relationship drama just added more stress to mental health.
  8. The guilt of this affair was an excuse for more drinking.
  9. I wasted a lot of money trying to impress the new woman.
  10. The fallout and scandal derailed my personal mission to fight poverty in Haiti.

There you have it. Today’s package of regrets.

I’m working with my sponsor and higher power to deal with the guilt. But that’s easier said than done. I’m learning not to hate myself, because I know self-hate is addiction’s favorite weapon.

I always welcome your comments.

I’m feeling a little lost tonight, no fantasy of drinking. Just feeling a little sad about the past.

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About Sober Tony

Tony is the founder and editor of Daily Recovery Club. He is a widely respected authority (in his own mind). He's just trying to live a little longer and a lot stronger.

This blog is not professional or medical advice, rather a support community for others suffering from alcoholism. We are all experts on failure, starting over, and trying to laugh at the absurdity of it all. Find him on Twitter @soberTony

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  1. asobermiracle says

    April 27, 2017 at 12:08 pm

    I here ya.

    But you are reborn every day you don’t take a drink, and your kids (and even your wife) will come to know that. And if ever your children, or the countless other people who you encounter, feel the pull of addiction, you will have provided them with a blueprint for salvation. Out of the ashes rises a true hero, Tony. You. Your honesty is incredibly brave and inspiring, especially for those of us who walk along side you in recovery.

    You are in my prayers. xoxo

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    • Sober Tony says

      April 27, 2017 at 3:28 pm

      Thank you. What you wrote is very encouraging to me.

      Reply
  2. Untipsyteacher says

    April 27, 2017 at 10:00 pm

    I’m sorry, Tony.
    A Sober Miracle had a wonderful response.
    I am so happy you have someone to help you through this.
    xo
    Wendy

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  3. Lesley Humphreys-jones says

    April 15, 2023 at 10:51 am

    Your priority just like the rest of us drinkers is sobriety, every day of abstinence is a win that helps undo the jumble in your mind and makes us a bit stronger.

    Reply

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