First it was Coca-Cola, now it’s energy drinks.
I’m always looking for a fix.
Things could be worse, it’s fairly moderate. I’ve been holding it to 8 oz per day, which isn’t much more caffeine than coffee. I think it’s the sugar that makes it work for me – especially when I’m in Haiti and it’s real sugarcane.
Sugar and Cross Addiction Behaviors
Yes, I’m using sugar to change my mood.
Alcohol was my drug of choice. Now that I’ve quit drinking, I don’t know how to cope with feeling down. Learning to manage life sober is part of recovery.
My relationship with sugar is dangerous, it’s addiction thinking. Just swallow a little fun and chemical happiness is on the way.
Whatever the cross-addiction might be – food, sex, gambling, shopping, compulsive exercise, or the like – the drive is the same. The recovering addict wants to feel better, which often means they want to feel less. Drugs, nicotine, and carbohydrates all happily oblige by altering serotonin levels in the brain. [source]
I’m watching for that, but I’m also going to talk to my doctor.
The mood disorder remains an issue
Things have improved with my the Depakote for bipolar medicine – I can sleep, I’m less impulsive, and my life is becoming stable. Things are less over-the-top.
On the down side, my mood alternates between bored or depressed. The magic is gone from life. It doesn’t feel sustainable.
Fitness is a problem. As some blog readers mentioned, I need to get more active. Things will be better once I’m back in the USA. I’ve had almost zero exercise during this visit to Haiti.
Anything to stay sober
I’m willing to risk the sugar habit to get more quality days sober. It’s an issue, but the greater risk is falling back into the alcohol trap.
That’s my update for sobriety day 115. Leave a comment to start the conversation.
- Have you experienced cross addiction while in recovery?
- Have sugar or energy drinks become a problem for you?