There I was hiding four little bottles of Merlot in my gym bag. I was back chasing the buzz and again a slave of this disease. I don't know why I always used to hide it. Maybe that was my conscience telling me something. Thankfully it was … [Read more...] about Day 8 Sober: Last night I was dreaming of wine
This is a big day - I've made it to one full week sober. It's been a struggle and there were lots of times I wanted to turn back. You can read about that in how I got sober. There is so much good advice out there, I'm nervous to throw … [Read more...] about Day 7 Sober: Going sober for one week!
This morning I was a mess, by afternoon I was ready for some beer. Three things stopped me. First, I had taken some Aleve for a sore foot and I'm nervous about drug interactions. Second, I'd promised myself that I could somehow make it … [Read more...] about Day 6 Sober: More struggle, but some weight was lifted
It feels like I'm losing my mind. Today I've been a major asshole. Most of it I've kept silent, but all my fellow humans are walking on eggshells. It's been a parade of habit triggers and things are bad. If I didn't know this was … [Read more...] about Day 5 Sober: Why am I so grouchy, irritable and angry?
I woke up grouchy and it got worse throughout the morning. It was a good time to go jogging and sort out what was wrong. Of course, it's day #4 and my alcohol dependency isn't going to surrender without a fight. Once upon a time, I was … [Read more...] about Day 4 Sober: Just keep going, tell the truth, find outside help
Trash day has always given me new hope and today more than normal. I had a whole bag of empty bottles and cans I was too embarrassed to recycle. Several of those were poured out into the bushes on sobriety day zero. But just as I was … [Read more...] about Day 3 Sober: Beer bottles in the garbage, learning positive triggers