I have 9 kids. That's something I haven't talked about for two reasons:I didn't want to bring them shame on the Internet I don't want to admit how bad I messed up my family.You're probably thinking, "That's a lot of kids." So, … [Read more...] about How can I explain my addiciton and recovery to my kids?
This posts tell the story of how I got sober and began recovery from my alcohol addiction. It wasn't pretty and too much of this was just me alone fighting for my recovery. It's a story of days, weeks, months, and hopefully years of going sober for life. Click here to read the posts from the beginning - starting with Day ZERO.
I'm glad to report things are quiet.Today marks 63 days on my recovery journey. That's 9 weeks without alcohol.As each milestone has come, they are a less surprising but just as precious. I honestly didn't imagine this far out when … [Read more...] about 9 Weeks Sober (63 Days) Starting to Believe the AA Promises
I saw the same pain on their faces that I was feeling inside.This morning I returned to my home church. This was where I served as a pastor for the past 11 years, until December when addiction finally blew up my life. I walked into a … [Read more...] about Day 61 Sober: I’m the ghost who walked into church on Easter morning
Life has me by the balls this week.I'm back in the USA to visit my kids, handle some personal business, and get some help with my recovery. This means lots of stress and standing up to fear, regret, and all my old drinking … [Read more...] about 60 Days Sober (2 months) The Roller Coaster Continues
8 weeks of sobriety, but today I was ripe for a relapse.It started with not shaving, since I've been sober the simple act of shaving has been the cornerstone of my morning routine. It was my first intentional daily habit when I quit … [Read more...] about 56 Days Sober (8 Weeks) So why did I want to get drunk tonight?
Hypocrite. Prodigal Pastor. Jimmy Swaggart. Those are some labels you can earn by walking out on wife, kids, and church.Before alcohol blew up my life, I was considered a religious person. My identity was wrapped up in the outward … [Read more...] about The prodigal pastor goes to church (my experience as told by the numbers)