The self-pity week continues.Today's edition was fueled by some bad financial news. With two emails, I lost half my income for this month - that's a big downside to the self-employment dream.It shouldn't be a crisis because I've … [Read more...] about Day 108 Sober: What if things get worse?
Even after the big 100 days sober milestone, I've had a week of low motivation.It's no crisis, but I keep letting those old addiction whispers hang around too long. It's the kind of drinking fantasies that will lead me back to the alcohol … [Read more...] about Day 107 Sober: Finding Motivation by Helping Another Alcoholic
Make your hula hoop smaller. Everything and everything outside can f*ck off. Who are you kidding? You can't take care of all that shit because you're not that f*cking smart. That's another quote from my AA experience, I love those retired … [Read more...] about 106 Days Sober: Being Selfish about My Sobriety
It's been creeping up on me for a few weeks.I have a steady feeling that nothing is worth doing. Behind that, the sinking suspicion that maybe my whole sobriety project was just another manic-obsessive … [Read more...] about 15 Weeks Sober (105 Days): Is my bipolar medicine making me depressed?
Lots of things about my drinking were head smacking stupiddrunk driving having an affair running up debtsAt 103 days sober, I'm expanding my stupid file Many of my actions belong under that label -- before, during, and after … [Read more...] about 103 Days Sober: Expanding my “stupid” file
I'm obviously not a recovery expert, I keep doing it wrong and being stupid and even tried to relapse on alcohol-free beer. BUT I've made it past 100 days sobriety for a few reasons -- mostly because of people and my sponsor and the power … [Read more...] about 102 Days Sober: Still Learning How It Works