Thank you for reading. I hope you find my posts honest and some help in your life.
I started writing this blog anonymously, but when I came out about my drinking problem I didn’t have anything left to hide. I learning to be honest, but I still want to protect the privacy of my kids (so no last name online).
Yes, I am a real person. My name is Tony.
I’m was a married guy with a houseful of kids. I used to be very religious and even studied theology in college. After that I earned a master’s degree in education. I ran marathons and used to take good care of my health. For 10 years I worked for a church and have done volunteer work overseas.
From the outside my life looked great. I was the last person you’d expect to have a drinking problem. In my mind I had it all by the time I was 35 years old. There was only one problem, I was losing control of myself.
I’ve been a secret alcoholic since I was a teenager. Then it got a lot worse.
Because of some early business success, I could afford to work from home. That extra freedom was my downfall. In 2016 (pre-sobriety) I enjoyed a morning binge while working in my home office, afternoon nap, dinner with the family and then a second binge while wrapping up some work in the evening. I thought it was fun, once I found the right drinks to avoid hangovers and vomiting. Things kept getting worse, every area of my life was suffering and I’d have several blackouts a week.
I was drunk driving almost every day, putting the kids I loved in serious danger.
While looking for answers online, I discovered other people blogging about their recovery. It was inspiring and fit my interests (I’ve been a web developer / online content editor). That’s how this blog started in June 2016.
I made it to 17 days sober. It was amazing, but then I got drunk.
The addiction came back full force and things progressed fast. Nothing seemed to matter anymore. My health spiraled downward and my marriage fell apart. I detached from anything that kept me away from drinking. That’s how I found rock bottom and ended up living in a Caribbean ghetto.
Fast forward 6 months and I’m sober again. This time is different.
This blog started as my long-shot because I was short on hope. Each day I’m gaining a little courage and discovering what it means to get sober. You can read my Sobriety Journal posts starting at Day #1
We Need Community
I’m dreaming that this blog could become a safe place for others too. It’s where we can talk about addiction, sobriety, recovery, and fight this demon of alcohol. I’m hopeful my stories will help someone else out there too.
It all starts when you leave a comment on any post.
You can find me active on Twitter as @SoberTony